Be the Miracle.

Been a long time since I posted in my blog. Actually, I have no intention to open my blog again but because I really feel upset, I'll just flush my bad vibes in this post.

I was so frustrated with my friend. We're 4 in the group. Unluckily, P was absent. In our tropa, I always go with Q and J always go with P. That's why J has no one to go with for the day so she went with us. And because of that, I wanna kill her. She's a b*tch. She'd hold the arm of my friend then take her away leaving me alone. Same if Q was absent, she's grab P and leave me at the back. Deym. I really wanna slice her face or throw darts at her whole body. It's also the first time that Q left me alone while I was cleaning. F*ck her. :/

I also feel bad about myself.
You see, we took the MSAE. (Mapua entrance exam)
Of course, we didn't study. We didn't have the time. I was too confident. Same with my friends. Then after the results are out. I was so disappointed. I didn't fail. But something more. I passed the exam. I saw the courses available for me. Then I tried to look at my friends' results. They also passed but they have more courses available. They also have that "double-degree courses". Yes, I will not take that seriously if I'm just a normal student in our class. But I rank the 2nd in the best class. I rank the 2nd out of all the seniors! Then why the hell I got that shameful score?! Does that mean I really get those marks out of persistence and industry only? Does that mean that I'm so STUPID that I can't get a proper mark if I don't study? Does that mean those friends who recognize me as the top 2 and call me "names" like idol and such are the one whom I should be referring to as what they call me? And that's when I tried to look back at things. What if I don't study? Am I just wasting all my life in school trying to get a rank but never learned anything? I really son't know. It's been a life-changing experience for me. Is this the life in college? Oh Gosh.